Sometimes I wonder if someone will ever love me or if anyone, will ever want me … If I was more stable and non emotional and not fucked up and lost wieght and got a different face I bet some cute boy would love me I wonder what it’s, like for a boy to love you and, only you I don’t think ill ever know …. No one will ever be able, to deal with me some people are meant to be alone and I am one of them I’m coming to accept that fact. Hm God, must really hate me.

I just worked my first 11 hours now ten hours tmrw and I list David tonight so now all I want to d is cutt myself cry sleeep then die in my sleep perfect plan. Fuck everything today bed, bye